Haven't really been updating my tiny space on The huge-ass World Wide Web.
Getting myself busy with school work,basketball and trying to stay alive and breathing.
Just got bored in class and decided to put the school's slow and lousy computers to the test

but facebooking,blogging and checking my email.

It actually took me like five tries to get into my email,with the last resort of google-ing Hotmail login page.

Somehow i really don't know why it can just works after that.
Anyway,time to head back to class.
double physics period studying about EM waves sure sounds like a whole load of fun.
Match with NgeeAnn tomorrow.

 P.S: I just want to say that Mrs Lim is very cute.
She is very generous with her,
"GOOOOOOODDDDD!!!VERY GOOD!" with her adorable high-pitched voice,
and like she's praising a six year old.
 

 

Hello people with imaginations,dreams and aspirations.

I came to the Create-new-post to find solace and justice for the grieviences that one particular IDIOT,
have done,by showing how creative, how imaginative, how ingeneous,and how brillant this person is,
by Copying.
I really don't mind if you copy photos,and use 'em,but how do in the world do you copy FAVOURITE THINGS?!
it's supposed to be personal,excuse me!
I am of course,no doubt,
extremely flattered that you've decided to show your insecurity and your low self confidence in your own style by copying,
and putting it down on the World Wide Web,allowing me,to find out.
but still i think it's dumb and stupid,and not forgetting extremely immature and childish of you,
for a person who have gone through __years of life.

I really have alot of things to say to you and whine about this whole issue,but i'm holding back,alot of this negativity.
because i was saw this,

 

"These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die, like fire and powder,
Which as they kiss consume."

Today is the fourth day of my new school term.
It has truly been an exhausting week,sleeping at almost 2am every night.
But I'm thankful,for the many blessings that i am showered upon.
I think the past week has went pretty smoothly,and there wasn't much unexpected hiccups.
I'm more worried about next week because i'll be getting my O level Chinese results.
I feel like everyday i go to school,the teachers are all trying to brainwash us,
with how easy it is to score A1s,and that it's not difficult.
Not to mention the extra emphasis of Scheme of Work for all subjects,
(that would finish by April and May)
and how limited time we have left.
Actually,come to think about it,it terrifies me quite a whole lot.
And it would feel soo surreal when i'm seating on that chair in The hall,for my O level papers.
Because now when i look back and i say,
"Oh hey,it's three years already?!"
This sentence just keeps repeating in my head this whole week.
I had a lot of draggy days where i became a total clock-watcher,seeing how time passes bit by bit,
wondering why does it move at such "incredibly fast speed".
And here i am,complaining that it has been 365.25x3days in secondary school.
there are now 365-6 days left till 2011,where a new chapter of my life would begin again.
come to think of it,it really isn't much time,because it would mean i'm about 200 more days to my o levels,
which doesn't sound very welcoming and pleasant.
I know i'm going to be like thrice as busy as i am now,with season coming right up into my ass,
and with more and more and more work rushing in like water,i feel like i'll totally drown in them. ):
but i think i will survive and make it through.(:

Been listening to alot of Asher Roth's.
He's like my second offical favourite rapper,next to Eminem.
But Switchfoot's playing on shuffle recently.
Pretty good band,i'd say.(:





 

What is your passion?
What is your ambition?
What are your hopes?
What are your dreams?

One that you'd run miles,
getting up after each setback,
the one that will put you into tears,
But put such a beautiful smile across your face,
when you cross that finish line.

But,
Are we chasing such dreams that are useless,
the dreams
that are there to ensure you lead a life assured of financial stability,
the dreams
that are there to make yourself look high on the top,
the dreams
that are there for you to flaunt your capabilities,your ingenious,
the dreams
that are there so that you live up to expectations from parents,peers or teachers?

Passion,
comes from within the heart.
It is that flame within you,that burns in the darkest moments-
when we face insurmountable failures,
when we are at lost,when we are confused
when we are upset and cry so hard,
and standing at the edge,wanting to give up.
It is that motivator that keeps pushing you to chase after your aspirations,your ambitions.
it is what drives you so hard,there's no stopping to where you want to go.
It is what you wouldn't mind doing for the rest of your life,till the day you lie in the coffin.
It is the thirst,the hunger for something so bad,you'd make sacrifices.

Passion,
it doesn't come from the wishes and hopes of the society,of governments.
it doesn't come from what your parents want you to grow up to be.
it doesn't come from the worries of your needs to survive through everyday.
it doesn't come from what other people are doing.
It comes from,you and your purely your heart.

If you're a lawyer,
your aspiration should be to help the innocent break free from their accusations.
Not help the rich who does everything with the notes,
and allow the guilty to get away with their crime.
if you're a doctor,
you aspiration should be to help the sick recover,and do whatever you can to keep them living,
and even more,show them how colourful life can be even when your days are numbered.
If you're a teacher,
you aspiration should be to help the children,learn and grow,
teach them the things that they need to know,not only for the As on the report cards,
but also for the A in their character and spirit.
Everyday should not be about making your students like you and fall in love with you,
so that you can have the most teachers' day gifts on your table,
but the words that they write to express their deepest gratitude and thanks,
that makes you a good teacher.

There are just so many many things in this world that lost it's meaning and purpose,
because all of us are blinded,be it by money,by power,by greed,by selfishness,by the importance of time.
Why do you grab hold to something so hard and refuse to let go?
So that you can enjoy the finer things in life,
not the expensive ones,the cheap and good ones-Friends,Family,Love?

There was this daughter who wanted to buy a new bed for her mother who lives in the village.
But little did she know that her mother has all her life savings in the mattress that the daughter threw away.
Her life savings was worth US$1million.
If it was you,would you get mad and angry?
Even if she was your only kin and daughter?
I thought about it and i think most of us would blow our top and not talk to her for the rest of our lives,
and probably cry in agony that my money is now burning in the incinerator.
But,no,the mother forgave the daughter and she said that,
as long as nobody got hurt in the whole incident,
as long as we are both healthy and alive,
it doesn't matter.
How many of us can say it doesn't matter when our life savings are all gone because of one person's mistake?
Not many,or maybe even none.
That's because we see money,more than we see kinship,more than we see our health,more than we see happiness.
We are not able to let go,we are not able to just forget it and erase it out of our minds.
Because we don't step back,we don't see the big picture,
we are just like the monkey,who doesn't want to let go of his peanuts.
And that's why the love in this world is like it's natural resources- it depletes,day by day.

My resolution for next year shall be: Give thanks for everything-Good or Bad.

****

Was just thinking about these things on my walk home from Gym just now.
 I always sink into deep thoughts about very far off things from my life.
Guess it's talent?
If you think i copied and paste the whole thing from some who-knows-what website,
all i have to say is,thank you.
Because it is a compliment to me.

Anyway,i was just watching Avril Lavinge's advertisement on Youtube .
I (H)(H)(H) that advertisement.
Has this totally-melts-your-heart feeling.
It's like the next best thing apart from her "When you're gone" MTV that made me cry like buckets of tears.
and i think she's really super duper pretty!
and i think her curls are really nice and wavy and all.

(Compared to Lady Gaga,i think she rocks.
I think Lady Gaga's fashion sense is really weird and i kind of hate it.
it's irritating.
But it's quite sad,all the magazines feature her in the eeew-that's-yucky section.)
& i think Taylor Swift has some really good taste in clothes and dresses and what not.
She can look soooo perfect without any accessories.


Anyway, talking about cameras,don't you think eyes have the highest resolution,
has the most number of mega pixels,
has auto-focus,
and capture the most beautiful images.
and your brain's the memory card that stores them?

To end of,
featuring my favourite picture of recent times.



Oh well.(:
My recent posts have been rather long,
so be happy! (:






 

It's Christmas.
As much as i know the reasons why everybody is out,
and even when i know that it doesn't only happen to me.
I hate to be the one to unlock the door and find myself home alone with dearest SFZ.
It's just this really empty feeling that sucks all the love and happiness filled into you.
I gues it's like a helium balloon being released into air,as it swims around,
losing more and more of the gas that keeps it a happy balloon.
So in an attempt to make myself feel better,
i'm tumblr-ing and reblogging as many pretty photos as i can.
You know how they say looking at fishes swimming around in their puny little tanks,
can improve your mental ability?
Well,i guess that's kinda how this is.
Me looking at pretty pictures and allowing their happy and positive emotions grow on to me.
But there's really alot that i'm thankful for this Christmas.
I'm glad that i made the choice to spend Christmas in church
and i've recieved and made the most number of christmas cards this year.
Even though everything is really rushed and we all probably worked through the night to write the cards,
i believe everything is from the bottom of our very hearts,
which some really made me reflect and to learn about others,about myself,and
more importantly,my growth in god and in church.
Cell has been a really wonderful place in God's big family for me.
Although i've never been such an active member,
attending all the gatherings and what not.
Everytime i do,it brings great joy to my heart,
even though half of the time you guys bully me.(:
But through all your sharings and all the QT sharings via sms,
it is a great comfort and a great blessing from god,indeed.(:

Lobbie stayed at my place yesterday and she did her card till like 4am.
I give her A for effort,but F for skill!(:
Then she stayed over cos it was late,and since we all had to go to church tomorrow together,
she just bathed and sleep in my bed together with me!(:
*Hears the Awwww.*

Thanks BFF for like EVERYTHING that we went through since sec one till now.(:
I think all the craziest things,all the stupid things,that i've ever done in my whole secondary school life,
you've always been there to see or laugh yourself silly.
But you were also there when i was upset and going through like the worst periods.
(I won't say too much here cos i've got to leave the rest for your birthday card,and the graduation letter)
Even after we graduate,we're still gonna be BFFs okay! :D
P.S:please take care of my Friday edition of little miss naughty okay! :D haha.
Stay over soon after Os or something okkkk :D
LuffLuff! <3

(You can start composing your thank you sms to me NOW.{: )

There have been alot of ups and downs and downs and downs in this past year,
and the year really zoomed past me in a blink of an eye.
It went so fast,it's kind of surreal to me,that i'm turning 16 next year.
There are alot of realisations for me this year,which many i shall not share here,
because it is too close to my heart.
It felt like a new awakening.
I spent time chasing after my past,
reading any possible archives of blogs or diary that pen my thoughts down into.
I have seen how much i've grown from them till now,
or sometimes i find myself still at the same spot.
I've met lots of people in this past year,
and some how have stuck with me from the previous year till now.
Some are really nice ones,whom i'm very thankful for,whom i feel very blessed with,
like:











and also the not really nice people,
who takes flight
,just the minute when you were so ready to trust completely enough
to close your eyes and walk on a tightrope.
The people whom you want to call friends very much,
but choose to walk away from the handshake.
I guess as for this people,
the only thing i can say is,
they don't deserve the friendship i had to offer.

But through all that,one thing always remains..



& nothing ever changes about my Family.(:
Their love for me is more than what i ever need in a lifetime,
and my love for them is more than i'll ever give to anybody else.(:

Both Coaches are terribly cute,i tell you!!! :D
their merry xmas replies are like THEEEE best man! :D
***
Me: Dear-friend-looking-at-this-message!
May you have a wonderful Christmas and great time partying your way through the night!(:
Whether you had made me smile or cry in the year,
thanks for all the memories!(:
and i love you guys plenty!(:
XOXO,jing-lebell.
JianAnJL:Haha... I must the one who make you cry. Merry X'mas!
AHAHAHAHAHA!
SO HE KNOWS HE ALWAYS MAKE ME RUN LIKE MAD AND CRY LIKE CRAZY!!!!
anyway,that day when he saw me in my bangs for like the very first time,
his reaction is like totally priceless la!!
He was practically bursting out in laughter!
***
Me:Hello Coach!it's Hu Lu here!
Just want to wish you merry Christmas and hope that you will not be such a bad man anymore!(:
Coach:Merry X'mas to u.My lovely Hulu.
HAHAHAH!!!:DDDD
At least i'm a LOVELY Hulu! :D



Feeling so much better.(:
time for a showerrrrr! :D
(but i'm so freaking hungry.
and i am NOT going to cook anymore maggie mee,
because it will be like the 4th time i cook maggiemee this week.
And that sucks BIGGGG time.)


What a long post.
Loves! <3





 

(I think this picture is totally kickass.Ahaha)

my ankle is hurting like some smashed banana. ):
I think one heck of a clumsy girl!
Anyway,game with VJC today was okay,
considering that both teams had like limited supply of bench.
And i had to like play for all full quarters because my dear yingyi is not around.
For the first three quarters it was still okay,
but the last quarter i was barely surviving.
And i think i lost alot of blood today,adding to the fact that it was the time of the month! ):
Plus my nose bled and i've got this cut on my leg.
It's not deep,but it's like really longgggg.
But the happy thing is,we get to rest till monday!
Which is good cos my poor ankle has time to rest well.(:
Happy Holidays everybody! :D

Fragments of my HongKong Trip!

 

What is fear?
Some people live lives devoid of joy, happiness, and pleasure,
and seem to be so brave and bold towards everything that you want to hide away from.
but no one escapes the experience of fear.
We are born in fear and pain.
Our lives are profoundly shaped by both fear and pain,
as well as our efforts to avoid them.
We try so much to run away from them,
and praying so hard that never one day we'd have the need to face up to them.
And yes,maybe some of us are successful in running away from our greatest fear.
But for some,we're struggling each day to deal with the fear.
Because the fear is non-existent. It crawls into our lives and leaves us no time to build defense walls.
They attack and bang on our very hearts and they bombard our every thought.
I guess these fears are the ones that pull at your heart strings and makes it feels so heavy.
Fear of failure,Fear of being alone,Fear of the future.
And each day all you can do,is try your best.
Because these fears,forces you to face them.


Today just wasn't the best day.  

Milo Cup's over.
I guess i've learnt many many things along the journey,
Some that i've not even discovered and some that have already been kept in mind,heart and paper.
There have been lots of sweat,tears,regrets,jittery moments,butterfly-in-your-stomach moments,
what-ifs,enocouragement,love,support,laughs.smiles,tatics,determination,cab fares,and what not.
And the most important thing of all....THE FREE MILO!!
Haha,no la.
The most important thing is that i get to go through these bittersweet moments with my bestest friends,
and the people who have always seen me through everything in my (short) basketball "life".
(:

After the match,coach treated us to lunch!(:
Ate alot alot alot like there's no tomorrow.
And then wait and wait and watch alot of match,
and i had sugar rush and went abit(just a tinnieeee winniee bit) bonkers.
Then took prize and then trained to simei to meet sisters+Mother+Brother.
Saw ZhengWen on the train (:
Then bought stuff and then home!(:

Tomorrow got GYM. ):
But tomorrow can chiong at Siglap Appreciation Dinner again!
And add back all that i lost in the morning in gym.
Hahahaha.:D

Nights world!

Had a bad dream last night.
It was about mother comparing me to someone who has better results.
and also some other really weird stuff that i shan't spell out.
What.is.wrong.with.me.
But seriously,it felt so damn real. ):

I hate having bad dreams.
Why can't i have some proper ones.
Or maybe some really good ones.
But then again,i think the feelings all sucks when you wake up.
For the good ones,you come to know that it's not real.
For the bad ones,it'll come to haunt you for the rest of your life again and again.
Grrrr.

And the good dreams seems to disappear bit by bit the more you try to remember it.
Good things never last. ):

Hello world.
I've totally neglected this small cyber space of mine because my tumblr is so much more than what LJ offers.
But i'll still be here cos Tumblr's for my more artsy fartsy and more i-don't-understand stuff.
And it's more for me to keep a collection of the pretty photos and not always relying on google image search(Which sucks.)
Reblogging from people makes it sooo much easier,really!
you can check it out and set up an account @ Tumblr!

An update on Siglap on our match with Tnet today:
Great game,and i think everybody put their everything into the game.
Great strength and great power,together with strong defense.
Overall,i think really good game!
I hope this is a good start and we'll learn to play like that more often for the next 3 games.(:
I shall spare you guys the whole drama of me slipping and falling on water.
But well,i think it's okay to laugh heads off at me,
because i think i'd laugh at myself if i was the audience too(Life sucks.Lol.)
Everyone saw lorh. ):

After that we managed to catch TayPingHui,Allan Wu and a few others on the MingXingDui! :D
But after realising it was 9PM and i was damn tired,i decided to go for dinner and then head back home.
Sucks to have your coach at the next table who'd scream at you
and tell you to stop taking more! ):
BOO.

Super tired and sleepy now.
Contemplating if i wanna go swimming tomorrow.
I wished i stayed in a condo,then i can go swimming anytime.

Bleahblahbleeee.

Jetting off in less than 24Hrs time!:D
currently loving Tumblr!
Pretty pretty pictures! :D
(Http://craveforlove.tumblr.com)

Damn,my flu is seriously pissing me off.
Medication's been strong and putting me to sleep,
but i don't think it's enough to make me better cos i still feel like shit.
But thanks to all who said their get-well-soon and constant reminders to keep drinking water.
Appreciated much(:

Hello World!
Currently watching CSI:NY ! :D
Just came back from morning swim and i almost couldn't wake up
But i dragged myself out of bed cos i needed to get some excercise and burn some carbo and fats
after the scrumptious buffet my brother treated me to! :D
And so i swam 0.5Km(10 laps) more than the previous time,just to make my self feel better i guess?haha.
on top on that,went on the usual 1km(20laps)!
But then shortly after that we had lunch:D
Okay,i'm a pig,whatever la.
back to CSI! :D

Hello many.
First of all,i'm really depressed because i can't join the guitar courses at the Community Club until January.
And that means it's more unlikely that i'm able to join because i'm having my Os next year.
But i'm still praying hard that dear mummy knows that her daughter needs time of from the books for just one and a half hours,
and let me join the class.
Because it's the cheapest i can find,and it's also travel-able,apart from me liking the time slot.

I woke up at 1:22PM exact this morning and flew to meet cheryl at Tanah Merah at 145.
As it was really dark and gloomy outside,i had no indications that it was already afternoon,
and i was under the perception that it was still night/early morning.
and i carried on slepping until my dear maid came in and said
"Aiyoh,still sleeping ah!!"
And i looked at my clock,trying to figure out what her astonishment was,
to only realise that it was 122 in the afternoon.
And the i sprang out of bed getting ready in like 5mins and then braving the terrible storm and weather to meet cheryl at Tanah Merah.
Th rain was really terrible today,it was what primary school kids termed as,"Raining cats and dogs" or "Qing1 pen2 da4 yu3" in chinese.

Today's match was alright,
although i think many of us were in the "serious"mood like any baller would for a game.
But i think the most important thing is that on this side we don't get ourselves injured and we don't have foul trouble,
and also try new stuff on the court,
and on the other hand,
for the younger cedar players to get a feel of what it is like,and to gain more experience.
I wished i had more of such cups and experience when i was in Sec one.

Till life brings me more excitement for you to be dazzeled with,
I'm back to my boring old life then.(:

Hello DJ(DaJia),
Haven't really sat down and pen my thoughts down in this empty space.
Life has been a really kaleidoscope of colours,
Because at some point in time,it looks really pretty and colourful,
but at some point,it gets really dizzy and makes you fall into a trance.
And maybe a few times,it makes you so messed up till the point you wanna puke everything out.
well,in anyway,
Holidays has been really busy and i can hardly breathe.
Did i mention,i haven't even check the homework that i have to complete,lest do them?

Currently,
I can't wait for HongKong Trip to come!!!! :D
and this tuesday's primary six gathering.

Of course,there are still many people i wanna meet up dring the holidays,
cos when school reopens,i think there'll be no more chance to play hard already.
Thinking about it makes me feel so...SHINGZ.

The weather hasn't been really good,
and my mood has been following closely with the weather.
Although i love to snuggle into bed and hibernate for a couple of hours,
It puts me into kind of a sien mood.


Unity game later.
JIAYOU TEAM!<3
i think every single one of you are so damn cool.
(p.s:we should have a team picture soon.)

The warehouse sale was really boomsz.
Being the cashier was super stressful cos i think i'm seriously a blur sotong,
and i keep forgetting to write this and forgetting to do that.
I cross my fingers that i didn't make a mistake too serious.
Yesterday was one heck of a day too.
Got caught for trespassing while giving out flyers at Casa Mera.
Police was alerted but nothing really serious happened.
But being the KZ me,i totally cried like mad,asking for help everywhere,
while my darling friends and brother sat and laugh at how funny things were going to turn out.
Yeah,i guess that how KZ i get? ):

An update on our first Siglap game,
i know many were disappointed and the starting two quarters were a big flop.
Don't know what i was doing during that time too.
It was like my brain lost the power to read the game and I was like running all over the place,
losing my man,
slow on defense and what not not not.
But we won the game with a better second half.
And with a lot of injuries too.
(I'll totally remember to pray for god's protection over the team for the rest of the games!)

Okay,back to doing stuff for the warehouse sale.
Everybody in the family is so busssyyyy!
Time for me to adjust into the pushy-rushy mood too,i guess! (:

Toodles.

Hello world.
today was a really super exciting day for me.
Because i had my O level Chinese papers today.
Actually I didn't want to hear any discussion of any kind.
so as not to affect my mood for the second paper.
But then,it's totally inevitable and i just couldn't shut my ears off.
They talk in the toilet,at the corridors,and everywhere i'm bombarded over what happened two hours ago.
Thank god the break time is only 10-15mins?
Sufficent time for me to call my teacher and mummy,
but insufficent time to listen to more of the mistakes that i made during the paper.

I hate my principals.
terrible people torturing students,
calling for tests for ALL SUBJECTS!!!!
GO BANG YOUR HEAD LA!!!!! D:

 

Hello everybody,
i think i'm the worst person on earth
and i feel like i should crash and burn.
There are many reason on why i said so,
but i think i'm too ashamed to list them all down.
Sorry for all the mistakes i ever made in my life
and for the times that everyone "rolled-eyes" on my actions
and for the times i simply cared too much to exert control like an authoritarian leader.
i'm horrible,terrible,vergetable. ):


I totally burst into tears on saturday after the game,
and thank god sheenaTing lent me lean and cry into her smelly towel.
and for sheliaChua's &SheenaTing's company that made me feel happier afterwards.
Thanks for giving the damn babeees!(:
I was feeling in the dump and was trying to hold back my unhappiness.
And COACH just had to give my a pat with his bottle and said " jiayou"
and he just turned the tap open.
you've should seen what the heck i was doing on court.
Because i myself didn't know what i was doing.
I didn't 开球when i was supposed to,
and i didn't watch my man and let him run all over the place a few times,
and coach was like screaming his heads off at me throughout the time i was in court.
):
& i super don't like it when coach shouts and scolds me across the courts.

Time to hit back the books.
Got many many to do after i'm done and over with the Chinese O levels.