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Damn,my flu is seriously pissing me off.
Medication's been strong and putting me to sleep,
but i don't think it's enough to make me better cos i still feel like shit.
But thanks to all who said their get-well-soon and constant reminders to keep drinking water.
Appreciated much(:

Hello World!
Currently watching CSI:NY ! :D
Just came back from morning swim and i almost couldn't wake up
But i dragged myself out of bed cos i needed to get some excercise and burn some carbo and fats
after the scrumptious buffet my brother treated me to! :D
And so i swam 0.5Km(10 laps) more than the previous time,just to make my self feel better i guess?haha.
on top on that,went on the usual 1km(20laps)!
But then shortly after that we had lunch:D
Okay,i'm a pig,whatever la.
back to CSI! :D

Hello many.
First of all,i'm really depressed because i can't join the guitar courses at the Community Club until January.
And that means it's more unlikely that i'm able to join because i'm having my Os next year.
But i'm still praying hard that dear mummy knows that her daughter needs time of from the books for just one and a half hours,
and let me join the class.
Because it's the cheapest i can find,and it's also travel-able,apart from me liking the time slot.

I woke up at 1:22PM exact this morning and flew to meet cheryl at Tanah Merah at 145.
As it was really dark and gloomy outside,i had no indications that it was already afternoon,
and i was under the perception that it was still night/early morning.
and i carried on slepping until my dear maid came in and said
"Aiyoh,still sleeping ah!!"
And i looked at my clock,trying to figure out what her astonishment was,
to only realise that it was 122 in the afternoon.
And the i sprang out of bed getting ready in like 5mins and then braving the terrible storm and weather to meet cheryl at Tanah Merah.
Th rain was really terrible today,it was what primary school kids termed as,"Raining cats and dogs" or "Qing1 pen2 da4 yu3" in chinese.

Today's match was alright,
although i think many of us were in the "serious"mood like any baller would for a game.
But i think the most important thing is that on this side we don't get ourselves injured and we don't have foul trouble,
and also try new stuff on the court,
and on the other hand,
for the younger cedar players to get a feel of what it is like,and to gain more experience.
I wished i had more of such cups and experience when i was in Sec one.

Till life brings me more excitement for you to be dazzeled with,
I'm back to my boring old life then.(:

Hello DJ(DaJia),
Haven't really sat down and pen my thoughts down in this empty space.
Life has been a really kaleidoscope of colours,
Because at some point in time,it looks really pretty and colourful,
but at some point,it gets really dizzy and makes you fall into a trance.
And maybe a few times,it makes you so messed up till the point you wanna puke everything out.
well,in anyway,
Holidays has been really busy and i can hardly breathe.
Did i mention,i haven't even check the homework that i have to complete,lest do them?

Currently,
I can't wait for HongKong Trip to come!!!! :D
and this tuesday's primary six gathering.

Of course,there are still many people i wanna meet up dring the holidays,
cos when school reopens,i think there'll be no more chance to play hard already.
Thinking about it makes me feel so...SHINGZ.

The weather hasn't been really good,
and my mood has been following closely with the weather.
Although i love to snuggle into bed and hibernate for a couple of hours,
It puts me into kind of a sien mood.


Unity game later.
JIAYOU TEAM!<3
i think every single one of you are so damn cool.
(p.s:we should have a team picture soon.)

The warehouse sale was really boomsz.
Being the cashier was super stressful cos i think i'm seriously a blur sotong,
and i keep forgetting to write this and forgetting to do that.
I cross my fingers that i didn't make a mistake too serious.
Yesterday was one heck of a day too.
Got caught for trespassing while giving out flyers at Casa Mera.
Police was alerted but nothing really serious happened.
But being the KZ me,i totally cried like mad,asking for help everywhere,
while my darling friends and brother sat and laugh at how funny things were going to turn out.
Yeah,i guess that how KZ i get? ):

An update on our first Siglap game,
i know many were disappointed and the starting two quarters were a big flop.
Don't know what i was doing during that time too.
It was like my brain lost the power to read the game and I was like running all over the place,
losing my man,
slow on defense and what not not not.
But we won the game with a better second half.
And with a lot of injuries too.
(I'll totally remember to pray for god's protection over the team for the rest of the games!)

Okay,back to doing stuff for the warehouse sale.
Everybody in the family is so busssyyyy!
Time for me to adjust into the pushy-rushy mood too,i guess! (:

Toodles.

Hello world.
today was a really super exciting day for me.
Because i had my O level Chinese papers today.
Actually I didn't want to hear any discussion of any kind.
so as not to affect my mood for the second paper.
But then,it's totally inevitable and i just couldn't shut my ears off.
They talk in the toilet,at the corridors,and everywhere i'm bombarded over what happened two hours ago.
Thank god the break time is only 10-15mins?
Sufficent time for me to call my teacher and mummy,
but insufficent time to listen to more of the mistakes that i made during the paper.

I hate my principals.
terrible people torturing students,
calling for tests for ALL SUBJECTS!!!!
GO BANG YOUR HEAD LA!!!!! D:

 

Hello everybody,
i think i'm the worst person on earth
and i feel like i should crash and burn.
There are many reason on why i said so,
but i think i'm too ashamed to list them all down.
Sorry for all the mistakes i ever made in my life
and for the times that everyone "rolled-eyes" on my actions
and for the times i simply cared too much to exert control like an authoritarian leader.
i'm horrible,terrible,vergetable. ):


I totally burst into tears on saturday after the game,
and thank god sheenaTing lent me lean and cry into her smelly towel.
and for sheliaChua's &SheenaTing's company that made me feel happier afterwards.
Thanks for giving the damn babeees!(:
I was feeling in the dump and was trying to hold back my unhappiness.
And COACH just had to give my a pat with his bottle and said " jiayou"
and he just turned the tap open.
you've should seen what the heck i was doing on court.
Because i myself didn't know what i was doing.
I didn't 开球when i was supposed to,
and i didn't watch my man and let him run all over the place a few times,
and coach was like screaming his heads off at me throughout the time i was in court.
):
& i super don't like it when coach shouts and scolds me across the courts.

Time to hit back the books.
Got many many to do after i'm done and over with the Chinese O levels.




 

And would i ever come to know that the world is so beautifully made,
if it wasn't for your love?

 Dear God,
Life has been a mess ):
I have alot of things i want to pen down and say to you,
but i'm really tired.
I know we haven't talked for ages,
and i kept complaining that you don't care about me anymore.
But i know you were always by my side.
When i''m heartbroken over my relationship with my best-est friends,
and when i'm so worried what will happen the next moment,
I know you were there.
Even though i don't sense your presence,
i don't listen hard to know you are there.
somehow,i know that you never turned your back on me.
I've much to deal with now.
But god,for now,
just let your peace and strength be with me,
so that i can put in all mind,for the remaining 5 days left,
to grab the A1 from the table.
As for the rest,let me put them into your hands.
Amen.



 

Dear friend,
do you know who you are?
I just want to say,i'm sorry.
Because i never was the friend that lived to your simple expectations that you laid.
and i know there are many who would be by your side.
But somehow..I just wished i was someone special.
and sometimes i wonder if i'd ever be a difference if i wasn't here.
But i guess,it's all 命中注定 but i guess we also quite有缘啦,
because out of the millions of people,we became friends.
but i guess blame it luck,it's just not enough.
随然已经没有，但至少曾经拥有
I liked the times i spent with you,
the heart to heart talks over dinner,
or laughing our asses off.
and even though sometimes i feel it's just for you to past time,
it nevertheless is fun.

Let me keep these good memories,
and i guess i'm more than happy.
(;

Creep by Radiohead
When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run run...
run... run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

Ever looked back at your archives?
ever look backed at your past memories?
Ever looked back at what a person you were,
and what kind of life you were leading years ago?
Ever reflected on how much you have grown,
or how much you haven't actually changed?
Ever thought about how childish and immature you could have actually been?
That it hurt others?
Today I did.

I don't really know about you
But i like looking back at my progress as a person.
Today i visted one of my cousin's blog.
I read her archives and it suddenly dawned upon me that i used to be so selfish,
that i used to be so petty that it left such bad nightmares,on both of us.
She did so much,to protect me from people who'd maglin me on blogs with nameless tags,
She wrote letters,
did christmas cards,
and even promised to compose me a song when she learnt how to play the guitar proper.
It is not guilt that overwhelms me now,
but regret that fills my heart that makes me want to give myself two tight slaps for my stupidity.
Regrets that i gave up our relationship because of a fight which she has been apologising over and over again,
and my heart hardening with each day.
Regrets that i wasn't her best friend and sister like we should have been.
Regrets that i always suspected her of trying to take my family away from me,
Regrets that i was so immature and childish to let pettiness and jealously take control of me.
Regrets that we didn't take control and to build a strong relationship,that we both had the reins to.
Another question.
(Like there weren't enough to bombard my punny brain),
Is there still enough times for us to reel ourselves back to the past where
We'd played barbie dolls and laugh till we cried,
and gang up to bully the younger boys in the clique.
Played teacher and student,
or painted our nails secretly?
Or would it just be,
nothing but
a thing of the past.
a piece of my childhood?

Whatever the case maybe,i want to say my apologies to my dearest cousin,
who loved me and do so many things that even my own sisters wouldn't bother.
I'm sorry for the times that we flew past,
and the times that my ignorance became something i like to take my comfort in.
Ignorance of your goodness and your sincerity towards me,
that i always take granted of.
I'm sorry for making you alone,
i'm sorry for not being there.
I'm sorry for not standing you up,
but you always standing up for me.
I'm sorry,
but i'm always and forever thankful,
for a cousin,a best friends and a sister like you.





Swimming tomorrow morning.
Let my troubles dissociate in the waters...



 

Got a lot of things to rush out ):
Life's been one terrible roller coaster ride i want to get off.
Training 4 times a week is sheer madness to my mental and physical growth.
I come back and all i really want to do is sleep and rest.
This sucks.
 

O level Chinese in less than two weeks.
):
Today morning i managed to drag myself out of bed to get my ass into the water.
I can't seem to swim breaststroke anymore.
Can't even do a full kick.
It's hurting the shit out of my knee.
(I don't want it to happen.)
I needed to train my arm strength,so i swam with paddles!
I kinda miss swimming alot,because i realised that my stamina is a thousand times better in the water.
Now i can barely swim one k in the water.
If i had to do the 8x100m on a 1:45 timing,
i think i'd totally just go flat in the water.
Maybe i'll try to swim one k next sunday.

P.S:I want to play tennis ):

BBQ later;EGGGGGCITED! (:



 

 

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
cos'
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow

Heard one of the idol contestant sing this song,Ordinary People.
and i thought tonight was my favourite theme because it was all heartfelt.
But i really did expect alot of tears especially when it was specially dedicated to them.
Heart of Stone?Or just don't care?Or heard it too many times?
I guess that's just us,everybody,getting so used to the attention and love that we recieve that we forget how precious it is.
Yesterday my Qt was on Contentment.
And i guess that we all have to learn that,to just be happy in whatever circumstances that we may be in,
because it's only with god that we are able to change;weather it is our character's development or to change what has happened.
So,having said that,
coming to results,i guess i'll just learn to live and let live.
Because to other people getting my results may be the only thing they ever wished for but for me,
it's like dropping into a shit hole.

digressing a little,
it sucks getting scolded by Mrs Yip early in the morning.
and i really really really hate biology to the maximum now.
It used to be my ultimate-est favourite subject.
Our whole class is totally pissed with her.
I've totally grown numb to her ranting off at me.
Even till today,my failure for my first biology test totally haunts me every single day.
and i can totally never ever erase of my mind the spiteful words she said.

ANYWAY!
I totally am going to be a 36-24-34 after the whole season la!
Training yesterday was relatively crazy because i haven't actually been excercising for almost a month.
And my knee muscles were totally going insanely painful.
and then there was the run today!!!
I almost died. ):
I seriously wanted to give up.but i'm glad i didn't stopped.
like what cheryl said.."But after finish very shuang."
AFTER THAT STILL GOT SECTION TWO!!!!
3 sets of sit up and push ups.10 times each,but holding the last one for 10secs.
I cramped and i told myself i'm so gonna have nice abs after this.
IMAGINE DOING THIS ONCE A WEEKKKK!!!! ):
It's driving my knees mad.
AND NOT TO MENTION,
there's training tomorrow!
Recovery time is totally not enough.
But well,cheryl says we'll improve really fast,
so seriously,
死就死啦！！！

super tired );

I'm faced with disappointment time and time again.
I'm already giving up on you.
Waiting is just not my cup of tea.
Hoping for your appearance was just disgusting.
Not even any word of apology or any sign of you.
Thanks,really,thanks.

难过的时候谁在身边，陪我掉眼泪？
矢败无所谓，你在左右，
月光多美。

There maybe many things that happens each and everyday,
but don't you see that what really matters is who you share the joy and sorrow with?
对我来说，你是上帝给我的天使。
我却在你眼中是一朵云，飘走了，你也不会放在心。



 

Exams are finally over,
and i'm so so so glad it is because it's just suffocating to be under all that pressure and rushing.
and dreading everyday to come because of the amount of mess i have to clear.
Shan't rant about the papers; on how sucky physics was and how disgusting the last math paper was.
But in any case it's history and it's left marks that no one can erase,literally marks.

Needless to say,the end of the exams marks my start of my (always failed)diet.
and no more junk is to be going into my buccal cavity and oesophagus.
My thousand-th attempt to become miss vanezulaa.(sp?)

In anyway,life has gone past in a blur.
and a lot of things has happened that set me thinking.

But sometimes keeping it to yourself maybe the best solution to it.

Till then.



 

Hi,i am totally freaking out ):
It's 13 more days to end of year exams.
i totally don't want my exams to be over before i know it ):
Everything is currently too fast too furious now ):
i need some peace of mind,seriously ):
Currently,let my mind put down everything and focus on tomorrow's paper one.
Chinese better be good.
I spent my whole day memorising stuff ))))):

P.S:i heard Dr Boon's gonna sing tomorrow night DDD:
 

Today we had reading period and our class once again,
chanted in the face of our dear OPG to let us go to the library.
And in her persistence to win readership for the month,
We went along with our broader perspective and ez-links!
And at the last page,there was like many different cool drawings and so i decided to check the blog out!
and i think the illustrator is really cool.
and i like the blog address and how it ties in with the drawings,
--Things we forget.
I guess we really do forget some of the more important things in life,
and perhaps once in a while a reminder would do really good.

I've something really heavy-hearted that has something to do with my "home" that i cannot make a decision.
Because i am in a position where going both sides won't do,
and going either sides is just weird to say"Goodbye."
I'm so perplexed and confuse now.):

Anyway,i really like this morning's devotion and i really tried keeping the message to give thanks for all,
and it has been a better-feeling day,
even though i got abit angsty and grumpy towards the end of the day,where i was really hungry and tired.
But i had sort of a crisis in school today,
because i forgot to bring my cartoon file with all my important documents to school today.
Thank god for:
1.Realising that i didn't bring it during the first period and not last,
2.For Daddy&Mommy who were will to bring it down to school for me(This is so primary school,but i think my parents rocks.)
3.For me to safely pass up my work without being screamed at by OPG(:
Mommy even sent a message full of reassurance for me,
"Don't worry,mummy already standby beside me."
(: such a wonderful mummyyyyy,no!

Anywayyyyzzzz.
I've got to go study.
Too much revision to do,
Too little time.

Any mugging kahkis up for loan? :D

P.S:Changed my shampoo to dove after much consideration.
No more berries St Ive's for me! D:
Because the stock is too unpredictable,though i really like the smell.
But dove is really really really goood!
Cos' it smells really nice and makes my hair really smooth and i likeeeee(:
Okay,RANDOM! :D

 

And when we turn our heads back,
would things still look so beautiful?

Not feeling too well and i'm going to catch the flu really soon.
(maybe i already did)
Therefore i'm trying to poison myself with tons of water and hopefully get better.
I reckon it was yesterday's extreme temperature change,the disgusting weather,and insufficent sleep for a growing child like me.
anyway,this morning i woke up for church,and i didn't oversleep!(((:
Sermon was really draggy although i liked the way the bishop said about protecting our sanctuary.
Cell was really really fun,and i got to know even more people this time round.
We read the chapter of jude and we all picked on verse that we felt spoke to us,
for me,it was verse 5 that reads,
"Though you already know all this, I want to remind you that the Lord delivered his people out of Egypt,
but later destroyed those who did not believe."
Reason being i always drift away from god but this verse clearly tells me that even if i commit myself to god for one day,
if i don't commit to him for the rest of my life,everything i am and will be destroyed.
I take it as a stern warning,as well as a comfort i guess..
Because it still highlights the fact that as long as i trust in BestFriend,he'll always deliver me and bring me goodness.
(:

I'm pretty peeved about something but i'm not going to bother myself with it because i know it's just going to waste my energy,
and draining away my happy moments.

I've got my own style and i like it very much,
so if you want to do the same as i,
then i really have nothing to say but your admiration for me is too great to comprehend.

I know i haven't blog really long posts for a long time but i guess that's because life's just been hectic but meaningless too.
I really can't wait for proper cell outing,because ever since i've attended church anywhere,cell outings ALWAYS fail very badly and more than often not,gets cancelled because of poor response.
and i am really really disappointed.
Oh well.

I shall go take a nap,really sleepy and headaches are knocking.
Migranes are such a throbbing pain in the butt.


 

Hello all,
i am so absolutely tired now ):
Surprise Breakfast for OCL,Match,SnowCity with Siblings&theirpartners,birthday party for a bunch of people.
church early in the morning tomorrow and then daddy's birthday dinner@SSC.
Thank god monday is a public holiday!
Had some great fun today.
Especially going to snow city with Siblings&partners
where all six of us got onto the slide thingy backwards.HAHA(:
Match against Mcpherson&Queensway was pretty good,
and i think everyone did not bad at the game,while some were exceptionally good.
All i know is,i haven't played like that for almost one full year and i feels so good to be back on the court playing a GG.
Although it is physically straining on my old and round body,
the mental enjoyment was more than enough(:

SLEEEEEEEEP!